Nnnnnot much at all
"Nonchalantness - Who do you think I am, the Eidolon of Taking Everything Seriously? Gettin' riled up isn't gonna help me any."
Job: Turquoise Mage* / Ninja / Monk / Thief
* - Turquoise Mage isn't a real job, don't try to be one
Life: Find the truth.
Stronger Together: +3 DEX, +2 MND, +1 PWR
Cat + Imouto
Yukkuri Shiteitte ne!
This stuff is easy
*That's actually General now
Mad Cow Special:
Astral Flow, Brotherly Love:
Astral Flow, Ruby Light:
Arms: Master Emerald Knuckles (Tier 5 Brawl, Counterattack, Special Ability: Job Ability: Lancet, +4 MND, Upgradable)(15200)
Note: Dual-Wielding and Bracers can't be active simultaneously
Current Inventory that matters:
* - Probably doesn't do anything
I think 42,621gil?
Magic and Etc
Can be used for 3 Destiny BELOW 25% HP since I know I'll forget that
NOTE: Twin Soul's Twin Spell can be applied to a casting of Reflect to grant Protect in the same action. Kyaa.
I think it went… kind of like this?
"The white curtain rises upon a world once enshrouded," Amaryllis rises and spins, grabbing her mug off the table with a theatrical gesture. "So chime the Muses' bells, that their blessing they might offer." Her voice rises into a crescendo.
Cure (7 MP)
Dia (7 MP)
Faith (10 MP)
Cura (30 MP)
Protect (40 MP)
Shell (40 MP)
Reflect (40 MP)
Teleport (100 MP)
Curaga (60 MP)
Dispel (80 MP)
Meteorite (0 MP)
Wall (0 MP)
Regen (0 MP)
Martial Arts - Innate
Shockwave - Standard
Aura Bolt Ruby Death Laser - Slow
Execution - Standard
Stronger Together - Special
Overwhelm - Instant
Blink - Instant
Astra - Instant
Master Thief - Standard(?)
Unusual Species (Arcana/Tiny) - Passive
Twin Soul - Passive
Onion Knight - Passive
Lancet - Instant
Searing Light: 2d6+1 or 2d6+36 (base)
Stuff to Remember
Jewel Stat Reference
Dark Matter: Tier 8, ???
Diamond: Tier 7, HP Restore, Body Temp, Accurate, Special Ability (Prismatic*) - 6,000gil
Emerald: Tier 6, Auto-Haste, Special Ability: Lancet, +4 MND, HP Restore - 3,500gil
Moonstone: Tier 6, Beast Killer, Auto-Shell, MND+2, HP Restore - 2,500gil
Ore: Tier 1, HP Restore - 100gil
Pumice: Tier 8, ???
Ruby: Tier 6, HP Restore, Auto-Reflect, Special Ability (Cast Reflect as a slow action for no MP) - ?,???gil
Sapphire: Tier 5, Special Ability: Gillionaire, Special Ability: Fenrir, HP Restore - 1,500gil
*Ingame description: Synchronize with other gems!
GameFAQs description: Allows the use of alternative Astral Flows while transformed, no effect otherwise.
+1: 12gil, DC 7
+2: 37gil, DC 9
+3: 137gil, DC 11
+4: 500gil, DC 14
+5: 1,218gil, DC 17
+6: 2,500gil, DC 20
+7: 5,416gil, DC 25
+8: ?????gil, DC 30
Uguu Nat-Chan's Super Happy Fun Not-So-Secret Diary =^-^=
A large glossary of terms, with lists of names of people and really, really teeny tiny descriptions of them. The first page is just lots of names with no contexts, the second is nobles and businesses, as is the third, but the fourth and fifth have photographs taped to them- or did. The former is Amaryllis with an arrow saying "This is Ammy!" pointing to it, and the latter is completely torn out. The rest is just miscellaneous scribbled notes.
The biggest part, marked on the edge of the pages by a bit of Lenore's noseblood that was never cleaned, is a collection of long-winded musings on the adventure and such. There's a bit before that, on the tens of pages after 'guides' and dictionaries, but it hardly covers day-to-day activites or otherwise details so much as it is "remember to ask Ammy about x" or "remember to ask Ammy about y." It's still written in Natty's mostly-cheerful tone and riddled with exclamation marks, but it's clear that somewhere in the 50s it sped up and everything is more recent.
As only one person knows by now, the REAL purpose of it is to serve as a memory-jog while on the crystal-collecting rampage, and it may or may not actually reflect that! Also the diary is pink on the outside, with its own cute little pen. Was this an era where everybody used quill pens still? If so it's one of those and she probably gets the ink from Ammy or something.
Additionally, though the first ~5 or so pages are indeed section 1, 6-49 had been completely blank! … Until now; however, the diary is constantly on Nat's person now that the magic hiding what was written had been dispelled so 'finding it lying around' is less and less likely compared to just 'asking.'
Where the writing gets a little more coherent…
This is a good place to start, right? To free up space earlier on?
I was told to get this to keep my memories in. It seems normal.
I'm not, though- my name, Carbuncle, is something I forget almost every day now.
My friend, Amaryllis, is probably tired of telling me the whole story constantly, but apparently I'm not supposed to write about her secrets, just mine. Because it only belongs to me?
I wonder how much I'll change…
I didn't think she'd take my idea to play a game so seriously, though. I can't remember why I suggested it now either.
I was really scared of her at first… at least that's what she says. I guess it was because of how she always is? How she really likes acting, and talks about how everything's a story, and that things are fated to happen…
I like that, because my Ruby has fate and destiny and story in it too. Fate's part of me.
She does say I don't smile enough- because I've "lost my way, but am approaching a turning point in my story."
The more I read the closer I'll get to remembering, right?
I can't sound happy without practice!
Those make me look happy, don't they? Writing takes a lot to get used to, I'm not used to human hands.
Maybe I've actually never done it before? Or maybe I have a long time ago and forgot…
I'm supposed to be old, right? Thousands of years old? So I've had a lot of stories before that all went missing, Amaryllis says.
That takes so long to write! I'll ask her if I can call her something shorter. Since it's usually just the two of us I hardly have to call her by name.
Ammy says it's fine.
Ammy says it's fine!
"Such a distraught tone isn't befitting of the 'Glittering Eidolon.'"
That sounds right, because I haven't really found a lot of things I don't like. That probably means I like everything!
The other Eidolons I've met too, but I'm not supposed to write about those since I'll remember them soon anyway.
I wonder how I'll remember…?
Maybe it'll be sudden? Maybe it'll be because of something I do? Maybe I just hit my head?
But I'm not a human, that's not right… I look human though, so I need to act it.
"You are in this human form only because you are in the belly of the whale. All heroes face such self-annihilation before their moment of rebirth!"
That's just another Eidolon though, right? I haven't met him before but I've been told stories that I can still barely remember- Ammy says I don't get the joke. I guess I'll get it when my memories come back more.
I need to be more 'fun?'
Okay, I found something fun!
We were traveling pretending to be mercenaries for our first game, where we'd fight monsters for money so we could keep traveling. I used all the power I could using these legs that still feel new to me, but when I used too much people got scared and we had to run away to change our identities again.
Is it really that scary? Don't Mages do that when they fight all the time? I do need to remember to be more careful, and not do it around new people… don't forget that, me.
But the new thing I found?
Something I don't have to hold back on! It's more for me than it's for Ammy, but she acts like she likes seeing me have fun, so that makes me happy.
My hair covers it (she says I need to cover it with more than that, but nobody's ever looked yet) so I can draw a little power from my Ruby. It makes illusions!
People like the magic show so they give us money, and money means better fish. Ammy is the best fish-cook.
I thought about it all week after that last page and thought I'd try cooking too!
Ammy acts like I'm a Black Mage too now for some reason? I don't get it, Fire isn't a spell I can cast!
So I don't really know how I cast it on the food.
We had to throw it out, what a waste of fish…
Somebody called our act out on being fake! Ammy says I shouldn't keep doing it or people will find out it's eidolon magic, not normal magic. I guess we really are fake, huh?
Time to try something else. I really DO like these games though, if you ever read this, Ammy! I'm super glad we're doing this together! So don't tell me I sound sad, I really don't want to sound sad. I'm supposed to be cheerful, aren't I?
How did I EVER go without laughing this much before? I can't believe it!
Even if I have lived a long time, there's no way I've seen anything as funny as this, NO way.
For our new game, I'm a 'young orphaned servant girl'- I pull my hair back but I don't get to wear ribbons because ribbons are too fancy, and I don't like that, but it's all worth it because I get to see Ammy acting like (scratched out)
If you don't stop making fun of me, I'll have you fanning me and feeding grapes to my mouth all next week.
Oops… we got caught. Someone found out she wasn't really rich and we had to run again.
It actually was my fault! A little! Because I really wanted to wear those jewels, but I forgot servants weren't supposed to do that.
… Actually I forgot what I was supposed to be at all.
And I was cleaning my Ruby in the wrong place at the wrong time…
Ammy, whenever you look at this, I'm really really sorry! I mean it!
Even if it's been a few weeks since the last time I wrote that was the most fun I ever had!
I laugh all the time too, even though looking through here it seems like I didn't before.
My story's taken a new direction, huh?
The next game… I don't know what I really want to do. If I didn't write them down I'd probably just try to do something we already did.
I HATE having amnesia! What if there were important people counting on me that I forgot?
I'm glad I have a friend instead of being alone, at least. Ammy has friends too, but even though I just met them I'm not supposed to write about them. Something secret.
That's no fair though! Aren't they my friends too? What if I forget them? What if I read this and can't remember who they were?
I can remember their faces by reading it now though, so…
We haven't come up with a new 'game' in a while. I guess patience isn't something I'm very good at!
Ammy really likes acting, though- I told her I'd act with her, using the things I learned.
But I guess the games we do actually are acting, huh?
So if we were acting like actors… I dunno, I'm confused.
Sooooooo confused I had to write it down.
This isn't helping!
I came up with a new game!
Ammy didn't like it this time, though. We'd be… mercenaries again, right?
But, to make it seem really sad, because sad stories make people have sympathy and sympathy is good, I'm Ammy's little sister who watched her parents die and it was so sad she she stopped talking.
… Ammy told me I can't shut up long enough for that though. She told me that I tried to shut up to prove a point and then talked to her like nothing happened a few minutes later, but by the time she told me I already forgot it even happened!
Guess it's no good…
My Ruby's so lonely.
Why aren't there more of me? In storybooks there're pictures of me that don't look like me now at all, but they kinda feel like me when I look at them.
And humans don't have rubies in their foreheads, so I guess that's how I know I'm me.
But I really hate that 'missing something' feeling I always have! Ammy says that's just part of my story too.
And that's why I'm writing, 'cause this is a story.
It's getting kinda boring though, wish there were more games…
Finally found one! She agreed that even though acting-as-actors might not work, we can go watch plays.
And if I watch plays maybe I'll suddenly get memories back, because plays have been around a long time, right?
That's not… quite how she put it but I think that's what she meant.
So instead of actors, we're just people who REALLY like going to see plays! She does a good job smiling a lot; I really like games when she gets to instead of when she doesn't, but even when she doesn't she smiles around me and that's good enough.
So I'll smile just like her! Especially when she does things that make her sad and we have to move somewhere else to the next game.
(A big list of popular Gaian play names- some are bolded with a 'THIS ONE'S MY FAVORITE' key off to the side)
(Some quoted lines from play scripts, mostly Ammy's favorites)
I like learning, but I hate when I never ACTUALLY learn.
I keep looking back and it's like I'm someone totally else from who wrote in this! Is that what diaries're supposed to be like?
I think I look like this so I could learn about humans and the way they do things but I can't remember ANY of it.
"Godbeasts, creatures of story, guardians of the world." That's me! But I'm not guarding anything when all we do is have fun and drink drinks and play pretend games, and that's not right. I wish I had some way to get my memories back, 'cause this isn't working.
Nnnnnnn, I finally did it! I don't know why I kept making that sound when I talk, it's like it came out of nowhere, but every time I forget a word in the middle of saying something, that comes out.
Writing it is weird… I'll just scribble and it'll look pretty close.
There we go!
But I finally messed up and we had to leave again. It really WAS me this time, too, I'm sorry, Ammy!
I got into a big argument with someone else who was a fan of a play, then while we were yelling I totally forgot what the plays WERE and started making things up, and then the guards came after I kicked him in the face, and… um, this is more embarrassing to write about than the thing Ammy did a while back that was really funny.
If I could still remember that I'd write about it instead.
We found a new game finally!
This place is pretty big, and all the guards wear these REVEALING outfits.
Even though my human body's not tall or anything I asked Ammy if we could try it, and we so did!
It's really cold to wear, and Ammy is giving me this totally mad look.
I CAN'T stop giggling; no matter what the other thing is, this is way funnier.
The Captain looks at me weird when I try so hard not to laugh in front of her but I just can't heeeeeelp it!
I wonder if Ammy's gonna hate me forever for this? Her face hasn't stopped being red yet. Maybe if I rubymagic…
… And two days later she quits.
Oh well, the work was really boring anyway! But Ammy, you're so SILLY.
At least we got pictures out of it! I pretty much had to grab Ammy to keep her from running off, but I'm totally keeping these no matter what!
… She says she'll carve my Ruby out if I show anybody though, and since I've been with her so long, I know she definitely can if she tries.
I feel a lot cheerier after all that, thanks. Like this is the kind of cheery I should be, me-cheery.
As cheery as me.
Was old-me cheery too? I want to go around asking other Eidolons, but it's like most of them are as good at hiding as me. Boo!
The world sure is big still… it's like we've been over the whole thing already. At least that's what Ammy says, I don't remember more than the last couple towns we were in.
I wonder if my memory's getting even worse now…?
Anyway it's okay, we found a place to stay for a while, and this time I'm glad we can relax instead of playing any games. Games are fun, but naps are good too. Good thing we have all that money, even if I had to steal a little extra..,
It happened AGAIN!
This time it wasn't me forgetting something or being dumb, but it doesn't feel good blaming Ammy either.
Since I'm her friend I just know we have to get OUT of here! And we did, but now we're on a theater (theatre? umm I forgot) ship and the ONLY way we could get in instead of being stuck in town and maybe-caught was if we used the stuff I wrote about plays a while back and acted like I REALLY REALLY loved them.
Ammy acted like that too… but it was the weirdest Ammy I've ever seen. Weirder than the other Ammies I wrote about even if my memories are total blanks.
Hee hee… she doesn't want me writing details but I know I'd forget it if I didn't. Nnnnn, do I ever want to forget that? I'll write it after I get up from a nap.
… Oops, I actually did forget, and Ammy won't tell me what she was like no matter how many times I beg her. No fun!
I need to get a lot better at acting and different types of personalities too.
I wonder if… nnnnnnnnn was it years ago now? That old-me in there? Did old-old-me act like that too? Is is new-new-me more like old-old-me? … Was there ever a real me? I guess I'm just as me as my stories are, Ammy says.
I want to just have the new game be me going around with my Ruby out asking if anyone knows me, but she thinks that's dangerous.
I wonder if Ammy's no fun, or if she's just a really really good friend?
The new game feels more real than old games! Apparently we were SUCH good fans - I dunno how we even did that - that they let us do acts with them, and even though I have to follow Ammy's lead a bunch they didn't see anything weird about me yet. Phew!
Instead of… headbands or big ribbons or other things, though, I have to wear small stuff on my Ruby like bandages. And they feel REALLY icky! Ammy says we won't be here for very long, so okaaaaaay. I hope I don't have to do it again, 'cause it feels so gross. She doesn't even GET how bad it feels!
I don't know a whole lot about acting, but wearing costumes is really neat. I was really lucky that Ammy got to beg them to only let me play parts where I didn't have any lines to remember, 'cause that'd suck if I blanked again. I don't think it's really THAT bad, but it feels like it is sometimes…
Even though we hadn't been in that troupe long (I forgot their name already too) we had to slip out, because it was getting dangerous. They tried to argue that someone other than Ammy had to do my hair and if they found out… nnn, I guess that means it was my fault this time. I wish I could've trusted them enough to just show everyone, but Ammy doesn't like that. I guess I see why she's worried, too. Poor Ammy.
So now we're traveling thinking of the new game! I wonder what it'll be?
Ammy didn't find one yet, but I sure did! This city has a lot of rich people and fancy stuff in it, so I went back to that page and told Ammy she should pretend to be rich- she wouldn't, though. Boooo.
But… there was lots of shiny stuff. So when it turned out we already had to leave FAST, I went off on my own and did something I always wanted to!
Ammy didn't like it when she found out I stole all the shiny things I did, but it did the job it was supposed to~
They feel close to me, but I can't get any memories… dunno if we'll be able to keep these things if we keep traveling anyway.
Gotta love how hard they try to find me but my magic's too good! Nnnnyeh!
… Or maybe I'm just really lucky. Okaaaaaaaay, I'll put them back tomorrow…
WHY IS WRITIGN SO HARD NOW
I JUst wanTEd amMY TO NOT BE ALone
SO WE DRONK
DRUNK OH I FORGOT
… Was that why she told me to look at this page in the morning? Nnnnnn, my head hurts a little but she's just flopping around now.
I never wrote about this before so is it the first time it's happened? … Maybe not 'cause I don't think I WANT to remember that.
Now we're in a safe place 'cause Ammy had the BEST GAME idea!
Actually, she said it was my idea but I forgot suggesting it so, I guess it's hers, now! And that's easier because thanking myself for it is boring!
We're on a BIIIIIIIG boat with lots of fish! And we'll get to EAT the fish too!
… We have to catch them first though, and that takes a long time. It's a lot of waiting. Nnnnnnnn, but it's all worth it, right?
Was it reaaaaaaaaaaaaally a whole month since the last time I wrote anything? The fish was soooooooooo good but the waiting was sooooooooooo awful. And even worse I wrote that it actually WAS my suggestion so she has to pick the next one.
Working in a library won't be THAT bad, right?
She likes stories and gets to be around lots of books with stories in them! And maybe I can find out more about my memories, right?
… We said that but I've just been sitting here writing all day. There's nothing that even rings a bell here!
I get to have a nametag at least so I don't forget my name like I usually always do, but this one's just as boooooooring as the job is, I hate being called it. I can't WAIT until the next game!
Oh, that was fast! We had to leave town again because something happened and everyone thinks 'that creepy librarian' did it. And I mean (scribblescribble)! I need to write down here to remember, from now on I'LL try to (scribblescribble), even if it means being me where people can see! It's kiiiind of embarrassing though.
She doesn't like any of my new ideas though, even though I read through to remember the old ones every time! Like…
Traveling Clowns But Ammy, why DON'T you want to wear that facepaint?
Wandering Martial Artists She says she can't "bend that way"…
Jewelry Store Owners Money…
Air Pirates Where're we gonna get our own airship? I mean we COULD always steal one but with just the two of us… I still think Ammy looks good in an eyepatch though!
Traveling Chefs I still only make fire…
Wrestlers The masks I found to wear were really cool! But Ammy uh…
Magical Girl Prism Ruby, Beautiful Defender of Ammy said "no" before I could even finish writing it…
Ooh, someone's no fun!
Poor, poor chocobos…
They're really nice to me, but Ammy keeps getting knocked off when trying to ride them, hee hee.
We COULD just quit and move on to the next one, but this is my most fun game idea! We are Chocobo Knights!
We don't really… get paid for it or anything though, and we just kinda fed the chocobos a bunch to get them to help us.
Ohh, and our weapons aren't very good for using like this. Still! It looks cool!
We go around saving people in towns and slaying evil monsters!
… Until Ammy falls off again! I'm glad these little guys are letting us ride them, though.
Or were, until she fed them one of those pickles I TOLD her they'd hate! But noooo, "It's okay, they're from the same plant."
So this time, we walked all the way to a village where Ammy realize people hadn't heard many stories from big cities and stuff here, right? So she was a traveling storyteller! Me… well um, we couldn't decide what I'd be so I told her I'd just pretend to be part of the audience while she told stories.
That KIIIIIIND of worked until I started pulling silly pranks and making illusions with my magic to give, like, 'life' to her stories. Nobody really thought it was weird the first few times!
… Until suddenly they'd all stop paying attention to the story and stare every time I did it. And every night the listeners disappeared one at a time- ooh, this sounds like a ghost story, huh?
Anyway we found them all in a basement around a fire chanting something about evil spirits and how they had to banish them to save the village.
We kiiiiiiiiinda left right then.
Why is Ammy so WEIRD around her friend? Nnnn, she never acts like that around me!
Oh well, I'm not supposed to write about that stuff anyway, so that's enough. More importantly, a list of our last few games:
- A 'Gaia's Best Orangeade' stand! We spent all the money we made as soon as we got it, though, oops.
- Professional bounty hunters! We pulled off the 'dark and moody' thing pretty well, I think. … Right? Oh, we forgot to actually hunt any bounties though.
- Wandering Archaeologists! We got to travel the world digging and… uh… I forgot how unearthing pottery and stuff was supposed to actually help us. Ammy just shakes her head when I tell her, why's that?
- Freeloaders! This one was the most fun, why didn't we do that more often? Just sleeping in other people's house and running when we got caught, stealing food, that's the life~
… I still don't get why Ammy didn't like that last one as much as I did.
This is scary! I barely get to write without my shoulder getting peered over here, and I dunno what'll happen if this diary gets caught and read, so I gotta be careful- Ammy and I met some people to travel with and we couldn't travel alone because it's apparently really dangerous, right?
But these people ended up calling themselves MAGE HUNTERS, and they hate anyone who casts any spells ever, so the only way we can stay safe is by, um, not casting any spells at all. How can I do that without my ruby-heals? Will Ammy be okay?
(Suddenly, the text becomes darker and scrawlier, angrier-looking)
Who cares anymore? Ammy's just a big idiot!
Wwwwwhy did I ever care about someone who just thought I was "selfish" anyway? I was waiting to heal her until we were in a safe place and nobody was watching and she has to rattle THAT off? I don't CARE what happens to her anymore!
I ran really far, huh?
I don't know where I'm even at, or how to make a map of where I've been or anything. I just know I don't wanna look back at that page or any of the earlier ones right now, but it's okay, I can do it by myself! I've probably done things by myself as old-me… well, I probably had memories too.
But I DO NOT care at all about that idiot I left behind! I can get my memories back.
I know I can.
I can't find a place to sleep, though, and my Ruby-covering fell off so I don't know how safe it is to go to towns right now.
I'll just curl up behind a rock, it'll be fine…
This is a reminder from me to myself to write better, 'cause I woke up with a complete blank and didn't get why I wasn't with 'Ammy' until I read through EVERYTHING, which was scary since there are monsters around here.
Did all that really happen? She's a real person, right? I can see her picture, but I can't actually remember her voice or anything. The last pages say I shouldn't look for her, but I wonder if it was really me who wrote that. It sure doesn't feel like it.
I'm so alone…
Why would anyone ever want to be alone?
Reading this just makes me sad, I hope I remember not to read it next time I wake up.
I don't want to be sad again.
Well… okay, how do I start?
It's my diary so I shouldn't need to write a big apology or anything- actually what I SHOULD do is tear those last few pages out!
But I need those to understand how I feel, and why we shouldn't ever separate again!
It took days before I met Ammy again, but we were both cold and wet, and she was soaked in blood…
We just hugged and said "I'm sorry" at the same time, even though she MIGHT have meant it more than I did because I didn't actually remember what happened, just what I read about it- when I saw her though, everything felt so real and I knew I had to help her, I used all the powers I could to heal her until I couldn't anymore. She says I passed out!
So uh, let that be a lesson, me. Friendship is important, okay?
Being alone sucks and it's cold and boring! I don't know if I remembered enough to be worried about her then, but even if I wasn't, I'll pretend I was.
(The page is covered by a huge heart with some fancy writing in the middle, that appears scribbled out- the first letter is a 'C' but it's nigh-impossible to read the rest.)
Every time I meet Ammy's friends again I think I'll never forget what that 'WEIRD' thing means, but I end up forgetting it anyway! Isn't that silly?
Also shame on Ammy for ruining a perfectly good page! Jerk!
… She's still my friend, though, I don't want to ever think about getting mad at her again. Why am I even WRITING about this?
I don't wanna do the next game though so it's her pick.
Soon, I really want to do the noble-servant thing (even though I can't remember what was so funny last time) again but with ME as the noble. I'm totally perfect for it, right? I think rich humans like mirrors, so I could just carry a bunch of those around and…
Okay, so I didn't really think that out.
Finally, we're gonna do it! Our biggest game yet! It'll take a lot of preparation to do it right, though, or at least that's what Ammy says 'cause she has somewhere in mind to get stuff from. A mansion that burned down a while ago, I think?
Apparently it's a rich human thing to leave clothes and stuff behind when your house gets set on fire, so we should be able to find stuff.
How do I even know they'll be in this body's size? Oh well! Maybe there really WILL be lots of mirrors and stuff!
And the clothes I'm wearing now smell kinda bad anyway, since we haven't had good games for making money lately and they're cheap. Ooooh, maybe pretending to be rich'll mean I'll be able to get a lot of ribbons too…
Well whatever, that's not all. Can't fit all the juicy details in this page, but….!
So here's the deal, since I know I'll forget it— oh and I'll write my name somewhere in the beginning because that's the best one we've come up with in a while (even if some of the other ones WERE cuter!):
- I'm a noble of House Aitchison (weird name) from Lindblum (not as weird), and the house crest is an onion; Ammy is my servant
- The noble-servant thing is a lie, we're actually both sneaky orphans
- That's a lie too, we're not really orphans but actually assassins (that means trained killers, me!) from a 'Guild' in a place called Treno
- This Guild place pretends it doesn't exist so there's no way they can trace us back to it, so it's perfect! … And it's probably not even a real thing!
- If anyone gets that far I think we just reveal identities like peeling an onion or something, so maybe ones we've used in old gamems?
- Finally after a while we can drop the truth if we get bored or something really important happens
'Something important happening' is really silly though! After all nothing big's ever happened during all our adventures (or maybe I forgot to write it down?) so unless I get my memories or powers back we can have all the fun we want, going to parties and eating expensive fish! I can't wait!
So we're done… nnn, it could've been better if I didn't have a total blank during it.
I remembered one important detail, yeah… the whole 'being us' thing. But everything felt so weird and um, what's the word for that? 'Alien?'
I mean, I'm just glad we didn't get caught! And I found some totally stealable pretty dresses and jewelry, and we snagged some drinks… none of the GOOD jewelry though. Nothing that really felt close.
I dunno how much I'll have to write about this whole thing unless I'm AS funny as Ammy must've been, and she has her own diary for that, yeah?
Maybe I'll save it until we meet someone exciting or go to a REALLY GOOD party. Maybe it'll take years?
One page in the middle…
Nnnnn, these people? They…. nnn, who were they, again? Oh, yeah!
Lenny! A decent black mage, specialized in one element; she really knows what she's doing. She GETS it. And most of all she seems to have a lot of fun, right? Nnnnn, I like her. Let's take her with us if we can. She's a liiiiittle weird but… weird is good.
Leeny! She's a… Burmecian, right? Tough fighter. She's shown Ammy up, and that's something that takes a LOT of work. Wonder how much I'll be able to keep teasing her? Can't drop the act, can't ruin the fun. Nnnnn, I hope she's mature enough to not start a fight, though. That wouldn't be fun, since she really is pretty tough. Make a nnnnnote…. 'be careful nnnot to go too far.' Okay, I can't forget it when it's right there! Nn.
Omega Delta? Was that it? Maybe it was Delta… no…. ohhh, I can't remember! I'll make a game out of it, that way he won't catch on that I actually forgot. It was ONE of those letters, though… anyway what was with him, again? Oh! He has a sword. Mmm, nnn, right, swords… I… think that's it. Did he do anything else with the swords?
Of course there's Ammy! She's gonna be mad when she sees me writing this, since I'm not supposed to be me where people can see. The pages and pages of glossary and 'how-to-be-a-haughty-noble' guides for my memory's sake are one thing, this is something else. Nnnn, sorry Ammy; you'll forgive me, right? Anyway… ooooh, where was I, did I get lost writing again? What a paiiiiiin.
Nnnnnnnat-note: If you actually somehow find this, please give it back to me instead of reading it, okay? And you definitely didn't see anything in here if I ask, otherwise I'll get mad at you! I mean it!
Nnnnnnnnote #2: The 'nnnn' tic, don't do it in public. Don'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoitdon'tdoit. There, if I write it that many times I can't forget it. PHEW.
Levvie is really nice! Phew, I'm glad we can get along this time. It would've been scary to have just left if we didn't have that talk, huh? And I have a message from him to deliver to a… Ohh who was it again? Well, I'm sure Ammy wrote it down! Nnnnnn!
And for me, I have someone to look for too but I can just REMEMBER her name. Forgetting it again is even worse than forgetting my own, so as long as I tell myself that I won't actually forget it, right? Right!
… Dangerous. The Burmecian is? Well, that's fine! Teasing her is still fun, I just gotta be careful. Wonder what her deal is, anyway?
Oh yeah, Lenny hates her father and her brother is a magic sword-guy. Gotta write that down 'cause I might forget.
What were these little green monsters called again? Welllll, Ammy was looking at them, so thanks to Leeny's help I rescued one. That's not gonna be enough, though! Maybe we can go back and save them all from being turned to stone and eaten? I mean, that's pretty horrible. I still really hope Ammy enjoys her present, nnnn!
Mr. Prickly! That's what we called the little one, and it turns out everyone wanted him as a pet instead of just Ammy. Nnnnnnnnn- well, that's fine I guess, since he actually wants to help us! Maybe I can teach him white magic or something?
Memoops that doesn't belong in here, Ammy's supposed to write those, ignore this line please
Phi(?) and Lenny are doing private stuff, isn't that so nice for them? He needs humans to model to be black mages or something, but he can't use me. That's bad. Nnnnnnnnn.
Leeny's weakness is Freya Crescent, a hero who… does hero stuff. Wasn't there something I had to ask her about? Wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwell it's too late now.
Mogantz! Don't forget that name because we'll meet again. Is it really getting that bad that I can't fight anymore? Nnnnnn maybe he really WAS strong? But he didn't seem like it. Weirddddd.
The Qu who eats eidolons is Iforgothowtospellit whoops need to ask Ammy to write it down
Nnnnnote: Pretend to be mad at Leeny more since she's starting fights, maybe some way to stop it? Why's she actually dangerous?
Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnote: The reason for being mad is about nnnnnnnnnnnn is about the 'heart' comment, don't forget that, me!
A BIG DRAWING OF FEET
Oops, I got caught! Just kidding, that was on purpose to make things easier. I bet Ammy has it tough too, can't go always causing her trouble, right? Maybe Lenny'll tell the others what she saw? It's alright though, I'll go training so I don't keep losing my strength anymore! Nnn! And then use a silly excuse like 'I forgot.'
Will Ammy be mad? You bet! Oh, she could read this too, can't she? Well, I trust her more than that, but sorry, Ammy~!
I also wanna think on some things, I'm telling me so I don't forget, like how I don't want Leeny to ACTUALLY keep being dangerous but she's not that stupid nnnnnn! We could be good friends if I just talk to her, right? I mean, there's lotsa stuff she just doesn't GET.
Yeah, I made it! Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
I made a new friend named Te
I forgot! But he's really nice even if I woke him up on accident and broke the bridge, but nobody's gonna find OUT about that one.
We were gonna go to that Durandal place to find out what the big deal was but got lost; he was real nice about it though and went off to get something to eat. Hope he doesn't eat the others, that'd be bad! Nnn! Should've warned them… oh well!
This castle is really empty. No monsters, no people, no moogles… it's the kinda place that makes sense to explore alone because it's actually not dangerous, which sucks 'cause I WANTED to train and get stronger! If I keep getting weaker I won't even be able to move, right? I scare Ammy enough, so…
Baron, remember that name! Remember remember remember! He was a really nice guy, though I was still being fake-me around him. Even if that's how nobles are expected to be I don't wanna be fake-me forever, nnnn, especially around nice people like him. But he gave us his crystal and even let me practice new moves on him, so even if he's Odin he's NOT bad! I'm gonna go back and meet him again too after all this Ooooh Nat, don't get mushy! Focus on STUFF THAT CAN BE REMEMBERED!
Leeny snapped finally, and I was gonna stop being fake-me already. Oh well! Maybe I can talk for real and we can actually be friends this time, and if that doesn't work I can kick her into liking me! … But I don't wanna do that, even if I AM stronger than she is.
Ammy's kinda mad too, but Epsilon Sigma's still a really cool fighter and Lenny's super nice (+ticklish) even WITH all the fighting Leeny tried to so, so I think these people can actually be real friends! Nnnnn!
… They really shouldn't though, huh? Is it bad? It's probably bad.
The next page of Nat Saga's gonna be really interesting- don't miss it, Future-Me!
I'm back, and that was easy! Since I have plenty of time alone and can't get sleepy I'll just write all I can down! Let's see… first, Leeny was pretty easy to convince, so we're not fighting anymore, I don't think. Dangerous? Take that, Ammy!
But I'm actually glad; she didn't ask about stuff either so that made it a lot easier, I could've been in a LOT of trouble if she got suspicious, huh?
Then again I'm SUPPOSED to be suspicious so that's pretty weird. Oh well! Nnnnnnnnnnnn, at least all of it turned out okay- and I forgot to talk to Baron but that's okay, I only have one thing to say to him! The real big thing is what we'll do at Durandal.
I brought my extra clothes with me, the 'going out' ones, so they probably won't go asking me about being a noble and stuff when we stop by, which is good 'cause we don't want to fight that Glutton guy again, right? I sure hope Terry didn't get caught or anything, that'd be reaaaaally bad- but anyway if everything's okay we'll get to go spying and seeing how bad it REALLY is. And maybe if they know anything about the crystal but they probably won't unless we're SUPER unlucky.
Last thought of the night: Even if I was acting weird in the first place, Leeny was acting really weird too. I hope she's not hiding something bad…
(A big sketch of the map in Durandal, where the Glutton's mansion is surrounded by a circle inside a square inside a triangle inside a star inside another circle.)
This is it, me! Should I write something in here for the Glutton to read? Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnaah, he'll never catch me! But I really hope I can find something to stop his eating habits! Nnn!
And maybe, just maybe, if I use that…
Nnnnnnote: While I'm waiting I need to remind myself that Leeny's really suspicious, even IF she's sitting across the room from me right now. So I need to have it down in case I forget and end up letting my guard down- that'd be bad!
Maybe it's nothing but it's still super weird she accepted my apology and wants to go with me now, isn't it? And why would she want to save the people here anyway? Maybe she knows that's not the reason I'm doing this? Nnnnnnnnnnnnn.
(A big, ugly sketch of a door with… is that a castle? Nah, it's actually a lion head if you look closely enough.)
POWER -> FATTY
(A sketch of a familiar-looking outfit)
Nnnnnnnnnnnn! Everybody talked about it, that Kuja lady from the mansion probably wasn't the real Kuja at all, even though the stories say he's really pretty. I'm rereading it now and there's a LOT that's just about how beautiful he looks, is that really even okay? Well, this person wasn't really pretty as all, she just looked gross!
Anyway I'm going to ask Terry to help everyone again, I hope he doesn't mind! The others might since I'm gonna do it while they're asleep, but it's okay, it's not like it's DANGEROUS out there or anything.
And what if they get caught while I'm gone but I was only lucky enough to not get caught since I wasn't there? And then we can do a break-in and THEN go get the crystal shard? That sounds a LOT more fun than whatever else we were going to do. And I really want to do something about that fake Leeny, too…
I can't find Terry anywhere! But he's probably okay, I'm just worried when I think about how bad Levvie got hurt. We have that heal-eidolons stuff, but it's not… ooooh Nat why are you even WRITING about all this? It's fine!
Rees Riese is probably an important person… put Returners down here too. Leeny's getting attitude-y again, nnnnnnnnn.
What kind of a monster was that?! Well, we beat it, so it's okay! Lenny's trying to learn how to do cool kicks and stuff like me, if I remembered how to do most of it I could probably teach her. Uhh, how was Brilliant Rose again…? Kick… kick… backflip… laser… ohhh, that's hard to do now.
What IS this? It's a jewel, but… nnn, why did I like jewels so much again? Was it part of that? Naaah, there was SOMETHING else… it feels so weird.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do with it.
(lots of incomprehensible scribbles about the crystal's message- they look like they were written distractedly)
i'm glad i have you because i don't know what to think anymore
i am me, right?
what i told levvie wasn't a lie?
it wasn't me, but maybe there never was a me- because that IS me; it has to be, right?
Looking at that 'sapphire' just makes me more nervous, but I'm pretty sure it's okay, I'm me. She's really pretty… and I've never thought I was really pretty, even in my mirrors. There's that. Take it calmly.
They're not mad at me from keeping Terry a secret, right? Would he even help? He might help, maybe. Even if he doesn't I have to try! We can't stay over here, no matter where the last crystal on the continent is- we have to hurry! If something happens…
My duty comes first, no matter what the risk is!
… And it's really been itching a lot lately, now that I'm thinking of it more…
Okay… thanks to Ammy I actually calmed down. That was a silly thing to freak out over, huh? And go figure, nobody else wants to ask for Terry's help- maybe they just don't GET IT? Well that's probably okay, it's been a while since it was just us… nnnnnno it's more like I don't even remember anymore what it was like when it was just us.
Ohhhh what if we don't actually get the crystals in time? Do I need to write an apology letter to Ammy in here? Or… maybe one to myself?
Cr p the pa es got w t! I hope I d nt need to get a new one or s neth g
If I can write this sentence three lines in a row the pages are dry
If I can write this sentence three lines in a row the pages are dry
If I can write this sentence three lines in a row the pages are dry
Okay, we're good! I'd be sad if everything I wrote got totally ruined!
Now that I'm SURE I'm me I trust Ammy 100%, meaning I don't need to write any of that down after all- I don't wanna come up with a cool pre-move shout and lose it, though!
It shall be engraved upon your soul!
(Scribble), grant me strength!
Oh majestic (scribble), bestow on me your powers!
Mystic powers, grant me a miracle!
Blah blah blah
Am I EVER going to come up with a good one?
I'm not getting many chances to write when we're so close. I wonder if I'll still be able to write after… hmm, should I leave this diary somewhere in public and hope one of the others reads it just in case? Naaaah, Ammy'd hate that. And I'm sure we'll still finish her mission!
But there's nothing more important to me than telling her how I feel. Wonder if she feels the same?
(it takes up the whole page)
(THIS whole page is taken up by the address of an inn in Lindblum, underlined a bunch of times)
Weirdo in a costume, might help him.
Wonder what he's wearing that for?
More important things to do, might come back if I'm not in a hurry.
Tantalus are the good guys! Even though they're thieves. Uhh, all I know is that they're famous or something and that there's a 'Canary' with them who's really… good at being a thief. I saw her steal something once but she got away.
Why do I feel like I'm gonna be looking at this page for reference more than any of the other pages?
Anyway for me now! Everything's better, she really WAS just like I remembered. Wait, can she see me writing this? Nah, that'd be silly! Well, not that I'd mind, since nobody but me can read this anyway. Since I'm definitely gonna be me like I am now for a while, it turns out.
Really important thing though! This is why this page is important- I'M NOT the only one with amnesia, but I AM the only one the crystal talks to. … Why?
Oh, and putting the crystal back together was actually the right thing to do, yeah, crisis averted. I sure got really paranoid there, huh? Wonder what I'll see next…
Hi, dedicated readers! (Just kidding, I'm the only reader!) It's time for a break in chapters now since that was all the important stuff. Maybe there'll be more stuff later on but this thing doesn't actually have so many pages, you know?
And I'm not supposed to be direct about anything in case someone else sees it. Sucks, huh? But don't worry! If anybody ever gets a chance to read this they can just talk to me, right? … Or maybe something happened. Nono, that's silly too, I don't know why I'd even think that. Well, unless I drop the diary, that sounds like clumsy me! So if I drop it just give it back, alright?
That's all for now!
Actually I lied, what am I gonna do with all these pages?
(Is that right?)
She knows, talk to her when you can.
DON'T LOOK AT THIS IT DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING
Quick go-over: I met somebody but I forgot her name already! So let's just call her Mom because that's what she is to Lenny. She tried to show me up in white magic which is normally NOT OKAY, but there's at least one spell I know I'm better than her at no matter what, so who cares? At least she has fun!
Before that I went with Leeny to meet the Returners, and yeah, they ARE doing a crap job of training, they don't even obey their leader at all. No wonder they're stealing.
Even if you never do end up reading this like I said you could it's nice to have a reason to keep writing. Even if it IS just here for my memories writing only for yourself to see is really boring. And maybe it'll get interesting later?
Actually it probably definitely will, so this old book had better last until then! Nothing really important happened, even the 'monsters' are hardly worth writing about. They WERE tough and getting hit by magic hurts, I guess that's important, buuuuut it's all part of learning.
Fluffy animals nope not important
What's REALLY important is that we stop Not-Kuja as soon as possible. That's what matters!
Should I write about-
Nah, not worth it. As long as I see this here I'LL be able to remember it.
Really, it's nothing!
Can't believe what I found~
Wonder if Ammy will recognize it? Well, it was really important so if even I can remember what it looked like I bet she will too!
It even has all the details and everything, but I didn't expect to find it here.
I want to just wear it forever, I'm so happy I can remember it at all! But it's kinda hard to move around in, and it might look weird… then again my other dress didn't look weird. Maybe I'll switch off.
Ammy wasn't as surprised as I wish she was, awwwwww.
Or maybe she just has other things to think about…?
That's okay, I've been worrying a lot too since we've been going out and doing things like this too- even though it's so silly. I don't even need to! If something happens I'll know and be able to stop it, I just know I will! Even though she said stop that
Oh, right, we found out about Not-Kuja, that's worth writing about. Next page is all stuff Fatty-Fat wrote down in case we need to use it against him.
(A few important bits from the Glutton's records copied down in Nat's handwriting, which is actually a bit scrawly and hardly fancy at all if that's never been mentioned before. Has it?)
So Not-Kuja's in some kind of airship?
Could Leeny jump onto it from the ground if it's flying? … Could I?
Maybe and maybe! But what's important is that I make sure she doesn't get to do what she said.
Nnnnnn. Maybe once we stop her I can make up for all that time I missed!
But, the crystal…
What good's it gonna do if I forget it all again?
That jogs my memory whenever I look at it! I can hear my voice saying his name really clearly!
But he'd think it's weird if I ACTUALLY said it out loud, so I'll just write it down for now.
Memories are weird.
ALL OF THESE THINGS ARE IMPORTANT:
DIABLOS DIABLO DIABOLOS
MAGISITE MAJICITE MAJISITE MAGICITE
Nnnnnnote to self: Try to remember things as feelings instead of memories more often. That helps!
The feeling of the day is that I'm really glad we're staying here for a while. 'Cause of the stuff I couldn't do in like, FOREVER.
By the way Ammy if you're reading this PUT IT BACK I don't need you to bring it to me, I'll get it later!
To anyone else: I went home for the night and I'll be back in the morning, okay? Don't go looking!
Finally, I can mention my search for love here! Mainly, I don't want to forget it like last time.
Will I ever find someone? Does somebody like that even exist?
Well, most important is finding out what love IS! Oh, and I still have that other thing to do… don't forget that, me.
Important important important! Can't forget about that because HE KNOWS!
And if he knows about my memories, that means he knows EVERYTHING. And if he knows EVERYTHING, that means ALL our enemies know EVERYTHING.
Meaning there's no reason to keep secrets from FRIENDS anymore! … But for Ammy's sake I won't go blurting anything.
Uh, if anyone's reading this: Just be patient, okay? Patient!
We're all gonna smash Chaos' face in together, guaranteed!
Ammy's done a good job helping me keep it a secret, but nnnnn, it's REALLY itchy lately. Probably because I can't stop thinking about it, aaaaaannnnnd even though she's probably not in any REAL danger now I worry about her a bunch too.
I don't want Leeny to find out on accident because then I'll look like a real jerk, right? I have to tell her, and I'm pretty confident now that it'll go okay! If she's actually angry then… I dunno. But I really meant it when I said I was proud of her.
Mr. Theta (Did I get it right this time?) has a problem… he's really getting all twisty and mopey over it now.
I talked to him, Ammy talked to him, but he's just sad that he can't make dolls live a really long time. And I still think that's not so bad, even if you have a short life you can still enjoy yourself and be happy with it! Doesn't he get if they lived forever they'd overrun the planet and ruin everything about how society works? Gaia'd hate that!
I CAN help him… by finishing what I promised I'd do and finding Phoenix. There's no WAY Phoenix wouldn't be able to help, right?
But I dunno how I'd be able to tell him without (scribblescribblescribble)…
Oh, I know! Maybe I could just…
Ooh, that went okay. And now the Moonstone's closer than ever! Well, one of them is, anyway- even if I can't do anything with it it's really nice to have around. But that name can't be right, can it? When I shout it it just doesn't sound the same… guess I'll have to ask someone who knows a lot about jewelry and, you know, isn't an amnesiac.
Anyway, watching him make it proved that he knows how to do hard work, so, there's no way Feenie won't see that in him! I wonder what Feenie looks like now, anyway?
… Whoops. What did I tell Ammy, again? I'd only hide it from people as long as it was dangerous to tell them, but if NOT telling them became even more dangerous I'd stop that? Eheh… this sure is complicated.
I have an idea though!
I didn't get to make it really cool! Nnnnnnnnnn. But I dunno if I want to keep using magic to hide all of this stuff if anyone finds it, so the truth is a secret for now~
Still, I'm glad I found some people I could trust. I think. Leeny ran off, I hope it'll all be okay.
Who was I kidding? The truth is important because the world's facing a crisis! I don't have any reason to hide it anymore; why DID I before, anyway?
Leeny… still doesn't get it. I was scared she'd be like this, but I can't really blame her, right? Maybe I should have just challenged her to a duel and we'd fight until we were worn out without caring who won then make up afterward, because that's how it's like in a lot of the books Ammy has, I think! … But I don't think she likes those as much as some others.
Either way, I'll prove that I can be a good friend to her.
Then Lenny, she's taking it pretty okay- she thinks she might be immortal but she's not sure, I think?
That's actually important enough to write down, because maybe we can look back at this in a few thousand years and laugh at it together! … Maybe, if books last that long.
Mr. Alpha doesn't seem all that happy about my plan- I thought I was good at pretending to be confident when I really wasn't but guess not, huh? That's a, um, we'll see. I DO need to find Phoenix and Titan, out of worry!
So this page is about… shoes!
What, expected something else? Too bad!
Even if real-me has a hard time writing (I think?) I can still read and look back on this, because THAT'S one of the human-life things that's important to know about. How they feel, how some are hard to stand in!
Right now I'm not wearing the stolen House Aitchison shoes, but some neat boots… they're really good for kicking faces, you know! They're also pretty short and loose enough around the ankles that they're hardly boots at all. But I wear them like that so I can keep my Moonstone on, since it'd be tough to have one just lying around and carry it while fighting, yeah?
I dunno how much I'll keep them on, though, they're not THAT comfy to walk in even though they can hurt things pretty hard.
I need to write about my kicking techniques, right? Well, since I cast Cure spells by gathering energy into my Ruby like mages do and then being all "I'll use this to give somebody life!" and infusing it into them, it's super easy to do the EXACT opposite and cole uhh dictionary time what's that word
Coalesce the energy into a cool-looking beam or ball or something. So I make it invisible while I kick and BOOM, reveal it, making it look like the attack came from my foot! Cool, huh? It feels kinda weird to be squandering all my energy like that, though, and I get worn out even though I pretend I don't. If you're reading this, Leeny, sorry I lied~
… Whoa, I didn't know I HAD this much page room! Next one's important…
This tiny thing sure has a lot of pages, huh?
Ammy and I met a long time ago, it seems like now, even though it's not really THAT long. But since she helped me get so far in finding out who I am, getting my memories back, etc etc, this one page at least gets dedicated totally to her!
The 'no secrets' thing still holds, but… nice things.
I love how good of a job she does at playing her roles, pretending to be boring and gloomy when she's really a fun person (wish she'd do combat stuff that hurts herself less though)!
I love when she cooks fish every time I ask no matter WHAT game we're playing (at least, going back, it seems like it was that way… right?)!
I love how we fight together, since fighting's still new to me and I'm sure I'd be really scared doing it alone!
And moooooost of all I love how she taught me what it felt like to be human and treated like a close friend… sister… whatever! No matter how long I lived, I bet there's no way I ever felt THAT kind of feeling before. And that's what I thank her for.
Ooh, I don't love when she drinks all the time, but at least she's not that bad drunk…
So this is for you, Ammy, I'm SO glad to have you as my best friend, no matter how long it lasts!
(Ooh, that was embarrassing to write~)
After all that I can't just not write another page, right?
I dunno what we're gonna do now; I'm super nervous knowing that there's a clone of me out there. So lemme just put down the important things I'd probably forget and Ammy was remembering for them:
- My Summoner's name is Eiko Carol Fabool, and I missed her SO much.
- I kept Leviathan sealed because of some dumb thing a Summoner did for a long while, but he's still fine with being friends 'cause I don't want to like, be quarreling with him or anything.
- Getting hit by magic is awful, I need to remember how to set up my mirrors again soon!
- Celina - Leeny - hates Odin because he blew Cleyra up, but she's trying not to hate all of us. She thinks just because we can be controlled we don't deserve to be people… or… something? Maybe I'm the one who doesn't get it…
- Chaos is reviving and we need to kick him in the face! Some Fiends are after us too, we need to kick them too. 'Cause they're with him. And they might know my secret.
- I helped someone named Cid a long time ago, and apparently he had a Trance that borrowed power from his friends? And I was one of those friends? Not sure if that means more about me or him…
- My Summoner Eiko's fath adopted father is named Cid too, so I shouldn't confuse them even though he's a nice guy.
- Whoops, outta page space! That sucks, I guess I should just remember that Ayane has blonde AND silver hair, and the Glutton is just as big a jerk as Chaos is. Maybe worse!
You are doing well, Carbuncle. However… you must beware. That woman seeks to revive all worlds consumed by Terra, including Terra itself, to merge with the rest of Gaia. It is unknown what sort of effect this might have…
Pretty neat that I remembered all that word-for-word, huh? I even had to go find some different ink because I felt the color when it spoke too and uh nevermind, anyway!
It's time for a LOT of writing now, I wonder if it'll even fit in the pages? Or if I should even keep writing at all? Uhh, more on that soon.
That, up there, is the crystal talking - it even finally referred to me as me, unlike last time (Why DO I still remember that?) - and talking about Not-Kuja. I have NO clue what she's trying to get at, but maybe it'll make sense when my memories come back? Nnnn… Oh by the way, she has a horn somehow, don't know what that's all about. But it's real!
I'm glad I remember that, but she's NOT what's important right now!
The 'memories' in this diary were being used, so does that mean it's not safe to write in it anymore…? Well, what I WILL write about is that I don't care, I'll keep doing it no matter who sees! 'Cause I'm happy to have the memories I can get back from reading.
Right, I'd better clarify so I don't forget what I was talking about- We all met Not-Me together, thanks to the Crystal, and apparently the Glutton cheated for her to have memories. MY memories! … At least, that's what it seems like, since she totally answered a question that probably nobody else but me could know, maybe! So that means he was able to give them to her, somehow… meaning he had them all along? I don't really get it.
Anyway sh- ooh, I'm gonna be up all night writing this, huh?
Important! Even though she can transform into a weird-colored old-me, she wants her human form to be called Mary - and that's not even a very cute name! Actually, since this game is over, I almost want to change my human name to 'Maria' or something just to be really confusing next time we meet her; that'd be fun, huh? … But everyone seems attached to 'Natalie' for some weird reason.
Anyway! I want to go smash that Fatty's face in RIGHT NOW, but everyone says that's stupid, aaaaand they're probably right.
Looks like we're gonna put the crystal together more, and snag some more memories while we're at it- and maybe ask Bahamut and/or Ramuh for help if we get the chance? Baha… Hamu… Uhh, wow, this is weird, did I have a nickname for him before? Well whatever, apparently we were old rivals so IMPORTANT NOTE: If I meet him, pretend I didn't lose my powers, okay? Even if that'll make asking for help really, really weird.
There's a thing about the Glutton, though- also kinda important.
Not-Me - there's no way I'm gonna call her what she wants to be called in here - says the Glutton didn't eat her, even though all we know is that he DOES eat us. So maybe we've got something totally wrong? His goals are something completely else?
Or maybe I just don't taste as good as the big meat-heaps like Levvie since I'm so tiny and cute, who knows?
It's still something to think about! And even if we don't know how honest she is just yet, the fact that she's me helps it out a bunch; she says he treats her nicely and gives her stuff. And she's loyal to him, so… maybe he's really not bad after all? I don't like the whole "your morals would get in the way" thing, that hardly makes ANY sense! But he wants something with me. Maybe. Kinda.
I guess I'll have a question to ask her next time we meet…
Oh yeah, her fashion sense is better than mine too, remember to get cuter-looking human clothes sometime. Thanks, me!
Sappy stuff's over!
I did a pretty crappy job writing it, looking back, since I had another total blank.
I think I was doing one of my orders? I woke up outside for some reason, it was really cold and I was pretty stiff.
Leeny caught me too, how embarrassing~
Anyway what I'm writing this time is that she's strong enough to shut my Ruby down now, so she'll be okay if Not-Kuja summons again, right?
Or maybe I'm getting even weaker? Just a little more to go, gotta hang in there…
That blank wasn't a big deal, huh? We got to search for Ramuh and… lessee here, learned some important stuff.
First we met a guy named Rayj
… I think it was Raijin? Whoa, trying to get it right took a lot of space!
So anyway he told us Rammy was busy, BUT he knows how to get my abilities back! Probably, maybe.
It has something to do with learning all my 'stories' and looking into my history… I uh, don't get how that works though. Gotta ask Ammy what I should do when we get back, buuuuut maybe I actually could figure it out on my own? Nnnnn.
Next is that the crystal memory I learned is finally useful! If I can find some more out about that Overwhelm thing - Red Mages use it - I can make my Reflects superpowerful… once I uh, figure out how to do them again. It used to be called Reflect X2 too but that's not as fun to say. If I ever learn it, my goal with it is to make it happen right away so there's no time for it to wear off! … My Ruby can at least handle a little flash like that, right?
Ooh and, apparently there's no danger at all in summoning Eidolons who already have a bond, so it maybe WASN'T summoning me that screw up my memories. But, there's some airship called the Invincible (I still swear someone told me this before) that can just break bonds, and maybe the Glutton has it? Even if he did that with Levvie though his memories are fine…
Nnn, what's even happening?
(I lied, only THIS page is Ammy story notes. Ehhh later.)
I sure waited a while, huh? Everything went okay, we threw a party and…
Ooh, that 'don't talk about Ammy's stuff' rule still matters, doesn't it? Well remember then, me, 'weird' doesn't even START to cut it! How can anyone even act like that?! If I'm gonna find out how 'love' works then I'll help her too, I sweaaar.
But who cares about that? Writing about stuff that happened is boring anyway!
It should be about the fun stuff instead, like stealing a whole bunch of fish with a ☆special someone☆ or… oh crap we're leaving and I forgot to ask if Eiko'll help me rob someone!
Oh well, we'll be back pretty soon, right? What'shisface wrote a letter that's probably about how happy he is that they're together now but I don't need to look at it to know THAT, I'll read it later. Maybe I'll go back to check what they're doing soon?
(Instructions for Lenny's house are listed here because the player is an idiot and forgot to write them)
Whoa, Lenny's house!
It was empty, but what kind of a place IS this? Have I been around stuff like this before? I mean, the books and doors and stuff are alive, and since just making cool-looking laser beams takes a LOT of work, someone REALLY good at magic had to have done all this. Uh, her dad, right? I think that's what she said.
Anyway, this Tree-know place is pretty okay, kinda! … To nap in. I just woke up and apparently we're about to do something fun? Some 'arena?' Kinda fuzzy…
(I sure got some weird looks for writing that one)
(It's Trino, right?)
Arenas are fun!
… When they're fair. We had a good time beating people up until that jerk Kraken had to pop up and ruin everything!
But it's a good thing I waited until now to write about that, huh? He escaped with a crystal shard (important, don't forget!) and some Cary Kary person too, but we got one of them back thanks to Mr. Rho doin' some quick thinkin'.
Which one? Uhhh here's a hint, it's not the one with my memories, but it's still… something, I guess?
Anyway it's not a big deal, we'll beat him up and get it back!
Or we'll try, if we can get there before Lenny's jerkface brother Blade and his friend Alexis who's pretty cool- oh yeah, she's 1-0 against me in staring contests, I need to redeem myself next time we meet. Also important!
What were they doing again…? Oh yeah, they're going after him at some Swimming Castle something something, at least Ammy knows where it's at (I think?).
Mr. Delta's… what did he call them again? Uh, whoever they are, he built them and they're all our friends already! We sure are racking up a lot of those, huh?
They're fun enough to write about, especially so I don't forget, because I want to help them out n' stuff too. If Feenie can't make them live longer then maybe there's something I I can do? … Not that I have any idea what.
Here're the ones that live in the place he made:
Vivian - She's pretty quiet, and Mr. Alpha seems really close to her for some reason. I guess she's like a… what's that called? Babysitter? She didn't really care about pillow-fights like the others did so she's probably responsible and stuff. I wonder if she's really good at magic…
- I gave her an old dress that was apparently mine. I sure do hardly remember it, so I hope she likes it! She wants to be noble-like soooo…
Luna - My moonstone made me want to call her that! But she wants to sing too, and singing is something I wonder if I even know about? Maybe I could do it before, or one of my Summoners could… I dunno. She's easy to tell apart because of the hairstyle and ribbons I gave her, hopefully she'll keep it like that!
- I think she did, 'cause she sure looks different from the others. Nice!
Tia Tinine - I gotta ask her if I spelled it right later. She's not as silly as some of the rest and likes to run off on her own, wonder if she'll be okay? And um… I dunno what kind of magic she has.
- Apparently she does that modeling thing that's… uh, how do you do that again?
Savannah - This is total secret but I've already mixed her up with Lenny a couple times, the only thing making them different is their hair color. They both have the same attitude and all KINDS of stuff.
- She has a new friend named Garland now. He reminds me of old-me a LITTLE… okay, not really that much. Actually he reminds me of someone I feel like I met not-that-long-ago, who was it again?
Tifor O'Fore - Did I spell THAT one right? Weird… she actually looks like Lenny kinda but they don't act as similar. She says she wants a name but.. that one works, doesn't it? Maybe she thinks it sounds silly?
??? - I know there was another one! Is my memory doing its usual thing again…?
- Really. I keep feeling like something's missing.
So Lenny doesn't mind if I bring up her dad in here, right? Turns out I never met him before even though he's really old (not as old as me, hmph) but he's still pretty smug, like he knows what's gonna happen before it happens. Don't you just hate that?
Still, Ammy seems to like him and Lenny obviously does because he's her dad so I guess I have to too! I guess I would anyway since he's the closest we've got to finding a way to do something with my memories, but he made us go on some kind of test or something first- couldn't he see how worried Ammy was? :<
That's no big deal, though! We'll finish it and get back, like, right away, so I can do some memory construct thing and stop forgetting things. THEN I can finally go talk to Not-Me.
Oh yeah! And there was another doll marionet marionette in his house, Ambrosia, who's a lot like me in a LOT of ways. She came from the ruin-place we're supposed to go to so I wanted to take her there, but Ammy NODON'TWRITEABOUTTHAT
This place we're going to HAS to have all sorts of fun stories in it. Can't wait to write about them! But this sure is a boring walk…
Oh yeah, that Feymarch place that Fimble guy came from is important too, 'cause Eidolons lived there or something even though it blew up a few thousand years ago? I kinda wasn't paying as much attention as I should've been and a lot of it went away already, but he's met Titan before so that's a start. Kind of. … Not really.
That sure was an adventure! It feels like such a huge gap now since I barely remember yesterday… were some of these pages really years apart? How did I stand that?
Anyway so to go backwards we met some weirdo who tried to take our stuff and Ammy got REALLY MAD and threw an ENTIRE DRAGON at her- I wonder why that stands out more than the rest? Just kidding, it's suuuuuuper obvious!
(I sure hope she's not peeking at me right now) Was it really all because of me that she does this kinda stuff? I guess inspiring people like that is an Eidolon-y thing, that feels right for me… but I hope I get to pay her back someday too.
So what happened! Gotta make it sound as ridiculous and adventure-y as possible… okay, here goes:
The stuff I remember starts when we were on this big place in the sky… how'd we get there? Who knows! Well, I could probably ask but that's no fun. There were lots of small metal monsters - and some REALLY BIG ones - and I… think I got caught by a bunch of them or something because I wasn't paying attention. Kind of embarrassing! But it felt like they put me in a really nice nap, even though it didn't last for very long. Ammy and the others weren't gonna let that happen. … Let me get caught I mean, not let me nap. They BETTER let me nap!
But this time we had something important to do so… something something food something something moogles.
This page is important so I don't forget about the stuff we got! We fought this big… thing with all sorts of different weapons but it wasn't so tough! Ammy tore it apart, Lenny used her lightning to blow it up, Mr. Omicron set the room on fire, I healed everyone… huh, I don't really sound as cool as them when I put it that was, do I? Oh right, reading through this I just realized someone's missing!
Leeny went… oh crap, I forgot to write that down and now it's totally gone. Well, wherever she is, she left her ribbon with me so I wouldn't forget her. And I haven't! Funny how that works, huh? I know where it came from, the scent and feel are familiar. And it's a REALLY nice ribbon. I wonder if I'll get to see her again after I get my memories back?
Enough pages of mushy stuff, back to fun things!
I have a little… doll? Is that what they're called? Of myself now, but I've been seeing visions of what I used to look like and I can tell this one's all wrong. Just a little- like, the ears are a different shape, the Ruby… well, that's the same; it's always the same. But even though it's a little different I feel like I'm looking at me, and that makes it super comfy to have around.
Not really that comfy that I'm stuck like this and don't get to turn into old-me to curl up, but… ooh, I guess I'm just getting antsy because we'll probably be fixing my problem soon!
What else was fun…? Ooh, the rats Nezumi (oops, did I write that?) really like to dance and sing a lot. And they have jewels in their town… New Cleyra, I think it was? This Emerald's enough to make it harder-to-forget for me than most places. Even if how I got it wasn't all that special, it sure feels special to me.
What else? There sure is a long ride ahead!
Oh, that's a thing… yeah, I haven't wrote about Mr. Prickles in here in a while. Why'd I call him 'Prickly' earlier? How did his name change so suddenly? Maybe I just messed up!
With the way his eyes are, I can't tell if he's watching me write or not. Being as small as he is sure is pretty nice… probably. Every time I look at him I strain myself to try and remember what it USED to be like- but going from being big to being small is weird to even think about, you know? I carry him around on my shoulder and my head and stuff… probably because that's where I used to like to ride on people too. Yeah, I guess that must be it.
He doesn't fight with us… Is that just a Cactuar thing?
We're getting closer. Ooh, if I waste all these pages I'm just going to have to get a new diary, right?
But I don't want to! Maybe I should write slower… that's though though, 'cause there's kinda a lot. I think we found Amby's old clothes and stuff, but she had a different name… what was it again? I'll write it later.
I've been thinking about Renny though- it's only been a couple days but what I remember is what I wrote, not a whole lot else. So he's really mean? And Lenny hates him? I feel like I confused myself with all that… so I'll just ignore it and pretend he's a good person! If I do that he actually WILL seem like a good person, right? But I'm still at least gonna tell him to make Lenny not hate him… I think I'll try however I can to do that.
That didn't go bad at all! I dunno how much I really need to write about it if I'm gonna remember it, though. He gave me a way to fix my memory problems and I'm really happy for that, but, no way to get my old memories back. I guess I have to find those all on my own after all, huh?
But it's okay- now that that's that I can dedicate all the pages I have left to ADVENTURE! There's a lot of that to be had, isn't there? Maybe I'll just make half of it up, but it feels good to KNOW I actually did instead of being tricked by it myself. That's what's fun about writing!
Ooh yeah, Ambrosia's coming with us; note-to-self, don't forget to Reflect her if fights happen, 'kay?
A lot of exciting things happened! In… not very long, was it? Was it really just a day?
I already barely remember it so I guess I still need to write a bunch before it's gone, but I split off from Ammy so she could look for something important to her while I did my Crystal-mission and my Summoner-mission and stuff. This time I can't forget so even if I forget her this time I have to remember- got it, me?
Teaching Amby how to fight was lots of fun; she didn't even notice I barely remembered what I was doing! Neat, huh? She had some kind of magic though, even if I dunno what it is. Must be something special.
Anyway we got Renny's help and he taught me Teleport (did he even realize I stole it from him?), so, I think as long as I wiggle my fingers I should be able to use my magic to do it too. Oh, yeah, and when I do I gotta make it fancy just for the fun of it.
But! We landed on top of some people we apparently met before? An uh… oop, page's full
A Sirra Serra Curra Cirra who wears glasses and… something about drinks I already forgot; a Gale who has a weird star on her face (not as weird as my Ruby I guess) and thinks I acted like a tree- er, I mean, someone she didn't like last time we met(?), plus she loves weapons that're impossible to use or something; an Elizabeth who… acts like she's better at healing than me, I guess I can let her keep thinking that for a while; and a Baby Bebe who Mr. Delta apparently knows. Oh yeah, he's important in another way but I'll get there later.
Normally I don't write names down, looking back, but if we're gonna keep landing on these people I probably should, huh?
And we're gonna meet up again soon so juuuuuuust in case I forget.
Anyway so while we were with these guys we went to a place I don't even want to spell the name of (I just need to remember that it's important and the Eidolon Wall is here) and they all got grabbed by a monster! He called himself Ultros and thought he was an Eidolon- if he really was he'd recognize my Ruby though, wouldn't he? … Uh, I mean, all Eidolons DO know each other, don't we? Maybe my memory messed up again and I need to say I'm sorry, but, if anything I'd wanna show him how to be a REAL Eidolon. If we ever meet again. Sometime. Heeeeee's purple and has a lot of tentacles just in case I forget.
Next thing… I only have the Crystal-Memories of Eiko now so I don't remember actually meeting her, but I apparently did, right? I can trust my writing? Mr. Epsilon and I went to her house and saw a bunch of pictures of her- I swear I was in one of those. And Phoenix, and Titan. And some others… but! There was a biiiiiiiiiiiig moogle there too named Chimomo, I think? Wasn't it Ammy who liked moogles a lot? I think so… gotta mention it when I get back.
She said she knew Titan, Fenrir, and a… Mog? when I asked about Eiko's Eidolons, guess I wasn't that popular though. :<
But! I learned something important for my mission! Apparently there's a place called Condy Peety Conde Petie near here (that's near where we're going too, I think?) and Titan hated when giants attacked. Now they're doing it again, and I guess it's up to me to stop them! That'll be fun, won't it?
This stuff… is really touchy.
I should probably be really careful about writing it since Mr. Iota thinks it'll be bad if people find the place, buuuut I'll just be clever and leave details about where it is out…
According to a guy called Vivi (I remember him from the Crystal, clothes looked different though) I and a bunch of other Eidolons gave ourselves to SCIENCE and let him use our gemstones to make his kids live longer. Bebe was one of those, and there're a few others, but one named Lolo is who I need to meet sometime. I dunno if I'll remember or not by then so that's why I'm writing it here!
Why I want to meet isn't to, like, find answers about why my memories blow up so much or why I apparently lost my powers years ago or anything like that.
It's to be friends.
Well, I sure run into important people a lot, huh? Or… well… okay lemme get there.
I apparently met a Jasper Jules (his name's right there) and forgot about it right after, but! Butbutbut! He wasn't just any person, he had a whole BUNCH of definitely-not-stolen (he said it himself!) gems in his house, in~clu~ding this Diamond that feels really important just to have around. How'd I go so long without one of these?
It was real, too - I could tell - and he was totally honest about other jewel prices too. I reaaaaally hope I remember where his house is so I can go there again sometime. But… <3
Apparently my Ruby is unique and worth a LOT more than any other… which is, well, duh, but it feels really nice to hear someone say that and be honest about it! I guess I should feel bad for not telling him who I was since he had a sculpture of me (he makes those), but, some other time maybe.
Oh yeaaah, something interesting…
Titan is really big. He swims under the earth like water or something and causes earthquakes. Gotta look for earthquakes! Then I can find him…. or get hurt.
Phoenix shows up to anyone carrying a 'phoenix pinion' apparently, but they have to get beat up first. Maybe next time I think I'm about to go somewhere dangerous I'll buy one, but for now it's probably a waste since nobody can beat ME up. Guess I'll have to tell Eiko I'm sorry for now. :<
… But really soon! I promise I'll try it really soon! Thing is… I wonder if she's like me? So what if she doesn't know to show up when somebody carries those gets hurt anymore? Poor Feenie…
Oh yeah, and I better not forget about Me. It's important so I hope enough of me came back that I can remember it now, but in case I can't… well, I can't just explain to future-me what using my powers felt like in words, but I got to see myself sealing Levvie (that's what I called him, right? gotta flip back- okay it is) and it was really sad. My Ruby Light really is capable of a lot, so if things ever get tough…
Of course he's cute!
(nOte: WritIng on a ChOCobO iS toUgh!)
A lOt hapPened at OnCe!
I SHoULD waIt UntIl we stop bUt the ride is bOring, sO…
we ran InTO a… Bell Belle? RighT? Mr. Omega SayS We met her befOre but i dIdnt wrIte abOUt it? weird.
BUt she's a big mean jerK! :<
OnlY reallY becaUSe she sUmMoned a PaIr of 'lOnS called The Brothers and fOrCed them tO fIght uS even wIthoUt a paCt- pretTY sUre that'S nOt norMal bY the Way.
oh good we stopped for a second
These two… oh crap, I forgot to ask for their names! There's a big one and a small one, but - this is important - after beating them up against all our wills (and something else I'll fill the next page up with) they asked if we could pact with them next time we meet her and I was like, "Sure, why not?"
Even though I don't have a horn, it worked just fine! Even weirder with who I AM and all. Mr. Phi made a good point— if we can pact with each other and summon each other without it being a big deal, why don't we just do it so we don't lose each other?
Anyway, more important thing: I part-finished one of my missions! Kinda. Sorta.
I was kinda not-so-clear on why I was looking for him in here, but it made sense when I found Titan: He's just like me with the whole not-remembering thing, and he's apparently corrupted or something? The Brothers helped out like the cool guys they were but before I could snap him out of being wacko he ran off again.
He shouted a lot and apparently thought my Ruby was delicious— which is just as much of a compliment as what the other guy said about how much it's worth! But he tried to eat it too, so not really. I mean maybe I'd give him a lick sometime if he weren't totally out of it…
oop we started moving again
AnYWay UnCorrupting hIm is iMPortanT! WiSh I KneW hOw…
I wish I could remember what he looked like last time to make fun of him, but, oh well!
Turns out he was old and boney, and all we had to do was beat him up - and some Geomagix thing I think? - to fix Titan up, since it was all his fault. Go figure!
I kiiiiiinda showed off my powers to some people (who I need to write about later) but that's okay, since I actually HAVE them back now! Not having them was the whole reason I pretended to not be me, wasn't it? Well now I'm totally me always and forever.
… Don't think I'll write on the ride home this time though. Gotta go see Ammy quick!
So that went okay-
Don't forget the name "Kross!" He's a Tonberry!
And Phoenix is "Fenna" now. Just quick notes!
WHOA did I draw that? How did I even…
Well I guess I've still been having a couple random memory blowups since I put the tiara on after all, huh? WEIRD.
That looks a lot like the new form I just got, too-
Oh yeah, I should probably write that down in case I DO forget, huh? I just got the ability to transform back and that's PRETTY important! Real-me can't hold a pen though. :<
But that picture's pretty close (who's that with me again? uhhhh) if I ever need to remember what I look like. Thanks, me!
Having two tails is super neat. So is making shapes with them! I mean, I can see that being the Eidolon of mirrors and all, but they're still a little weird to get used to after being human for SOOO long. Oh yeah, I should write more about Fenna - Phoenix - since she's my mission and all, I sure don't wanna forget THAT! Buuuut there's one thing I want to do first.
Oooooh old-me you're so stupid stupid STUPID!
Why did I think it was cool to be so dumb and vague anyway? I had a mission to do and I almost forgot about it because I just wrote that 'I got a letter but everything's okay!' Nnnnnngggg!
So 'What'shisface' is actually called Buns Bunce and he was Eiko's true love (maybe?) after all! Or… something like that. I gueeeeess it's kinda embarrassing to write about stuff like this but I feel bad for him. Since he was into me (for some weirdo reason) and we had to trick him to show him who he SHOULD like… hope his feelings aren't hurt forever or anything.
I got to spend time with Fenna and Titan and the others planning though, at least. Oh right, about her!
Lenny and Ammy met her and apparently they fought! Scary, huh? And there was a fiend involved too, but… they kept her safe and didn't beat her up TOO hard so I'm glad. Being beat her up made her lose her powers and ability to transform though… is that what happened to me?
Well! I'm fine and as strong as ever now, so she'll be just fine too! … In a… few years. But she's lucky to have Eiko taking care of her~
I have a little bit of time…
Whoa, that was HEK HECTIC. So much stuff!
I guess looking back through the last few pages it didn't take long to meet Lolo at all, but it sure feels like it's been weeks or something! Weird, huh?
Guess he makes friends a lot. Wonder if he got that from me? But, eheheh, I guess I was a little hasty on dropping the truth and all that, my whole "let's be friends" didn't come off the way I wanted it to at ALL. But we'll have time to hang out sometime, right?
Oh, speaking of, I made a bunch of friends really fast too!
Like Bruno. I can't talk to him when I'm not real-me for some reason? Weirddddd. Though he's also a behe… behum… behom… what're those called again?
Oh whatever. He's purple and fuzzy and makes big rocks show up out of nowhere! And so can I, now~ ♪
Oh, there was also something about Lenny's jerko brother Blade getting beat up by Kraken and losing some stuff or something. I was right, he DOES seem kinda jerky, but I guess he just loves his sister a lot so I can't say bad stuff about him for it.
Hmm, I worry too… I really seem like I hated Mary a bunch before, and nobody but me trusts her still. Wonder what that's all about?
Oh well! Worrying about stuff isn't me at all!
Oh right, and-
Actually I don't want to write about that. For the first time in a while I hope I DO forget.
So we stole a big metal thing that can go underwater and holds the Crystal inside it.
And fused the Crystal together…
Oh whatever! I should just write "My mission's almost done," right?
This totally takes us underwater so we can go find Kraken and beat him up for the shard he has, but Ammy and the others don't seem like they think this is good enough. Oh right, I'll make a little sketch of what it looks like in here JUST IN CASE I forget, so we can teleport back.
(insert sketch here)
Teleporting IS fun, by the way. Wonder if I could always do it but just forgot?
Anyway my naptime's done for now, and there's someone I want to go meet.
Yeah, it's that Ultros guy- Ammy thought it was weird that I wanted to see him again (can't believe I still remember that much!) but it's okay, I just wanna teach him about Eidoloning and see if he's the real stuff. It'll be quick!
And Lenny says she'll be back tonight or tomorrow… eh, it'll be fine, I totally have time.
Lenny followed me back to my mindworld-place - Ammy if you're reading this sorry~ I just wanted to talk to my little Sis alone (funny how I ended up screwing that up anyway, huh?) - to watch some old memories of mine. I… did a pretty good job of making them be fun to watch a long time ago, I guess. Wonder when it was that I had a Chocobo best friend? And I wonder if they're still… ehhh better not to think about that kinda gloomy stuff.
Speaking of gloomy, something in Sis' castle is weird… like, it's locked and she said to never go in there ever. But it's in my mind! That's totally not okay, right? Well maybe she's just embarrassed. Heee, that's so like her~
… But she's less and less like me every time I see her, even though she's me. Weird.
Writing in the dark would be pretty tough if I didn't have my MY on my forehead, don'tcha think?
Now I'm hauling around another 'me' though… I don't think it really does anything, but I told Ulty we'd both hold onto one as a token of our friendship. Cute, huh? Maybe we'll work together sometime!
This is important, though, 'cause apparently he had amnesia too for a while. Is the world changing screwing him up too? It seems weird if that's really all it is. There's gotta be something we amnesiacs all have in common… but oh well! I'll just hang out with him more and find out that way! Easy, huh?
Also, I met Eiko's friends: Moka Mocha, Momotos Momatose, and Moris Morrison. Moogles, duh! Just in case I forget, I'm gonna come back and take them all to visit her sometime. Because they miss her. A lot like I did! I just gotta get this one bit of my mission outta the way first…
DON'T MAKE LENNY MAD EVER
Geez, what was all that about? Was it really that hard just to get along?
Nnnn… well I guess this sorta thing is what we're stuck with. Because emotions and stuff are just how Gaia is right now, right?
I guess no matter how much I keep diaries or whatever I'm not really human myself- I'm me! But that means I'm just way different than they are, too, especially… like, relationships and death and drama and etc etc etc.
But I guess that kind of thing's pretty good, since it means the planet's really ALIVE. I wonder if the planet changing will make that change too?
But then again, I guess what's changing the most… is me.
WHOA! Did I really just write that? That's really- what's the word EDGY to just burst into. Not me at all, nope!
I mean, I'm a little scared. Just a little. Should I even write about what's happening at all?
Probably shouldn't… but my real name's scribbled all over this thing anyway, guess there's no reason to HIDE it.
(Sketch of a Nightmarebuncle. With Nat's artstyle it looks really goofy and hardly threatening, even though it's obviously evil.)
Already feels like it's been a while since I had a chance to just sit down and write, but I'm wondering even more if I really NEED to now.
I mean, obviously I can't remember what it was really like forgetting all the time, but thanks to my tiara it's all in the past! Every now and then I might have a thing I need to check, but it's not like I KEEP losing them. And with the Crystal's help, plenty of them are here to stay.
So I think I'm gonna have to say goodbye to this old thing after all, huh?
A few more pages might not hurt, but I guess by then it'll be to help anyone else who reads it more than me- what if I become super popular or something and everyone wants to read about my feelings when I went amnesiac? Kyaaaaaaaa(did I really just write that?)~
Hi Cait! I dunno what I was doing leaving a whole name out of this whole thing like that… I guess I was treating everything like some kind of super-secret game?
Hee hee, that sure sounds like something I'd do. Even AMMY didn't take it seriously, that says something!
I don't really get the whole 'relationship' thing or anything humans do right now, really, but it doesn't make it any less fun to TRY it out. 'Specially when I can take any form I want to… um… when I'm less lazy. Hardly ever (hee hee!), then!
I'm starting to think now that I'll just be bigger, like, right before the FINAL BATTLE or something, and then I'll look like a powered-up super-me! That's the kind of stuff humans write in their 'history' books, yeah? The flashier it looks, the better!
Cracky got cracked! Maliris too- man, that was almost TOO easy. Being a world-saving hero is hardly even a challenge now- maybe that's why the rest of us Eidolons just hang around following Summoners' orders?
It's weird to be the one doing this, now that I'm getting more memories back and learning how things actually work. I mean, saving Gaia is something that should be in the hands of the people who live in it, right? And over here, I pretty much AM the planet itself. I mean, an order's an order, I can't just not do it or anything!
But the world we 'Dolons live in is way different from the ones humans and other humanies do. A weird thing that's coming to me, though, especially after talking to a Terra in the place Cracky took over (A talking statue! And apparently all the statues there were old heroes or something…?) is… well, maybe it's the first time I wrote about this in real detail, but doing my mission and repairing the Crystal means changing the world- sometimes it's little, sometimes it's HUGE.
Changes aren't BAD, though. And if we can do that, I wonder if we have the power to change the way Eidolons come off to the rest of the world? Being immortal magical guardians is nice, and Terra's were hunted by people or something… but what if we just WERE like people? Would we be able to get along?
Intense-looking diagrams of move names and how to perform them! Most are stick-figures.
|Full Force||A figure kneeing another in the stomach, with the latter doubling over.|
|Break Into Fragments||A '+' next to Full Force, with an additional roundhouse kick added.|
|Cutting Edge of Notion||A silly drawing of a circular downwards kick, denoted by arrows, and some kind of lines shooting at another figure.|
|The Edge of a Decision||The reverse of Cutting Edge of Notion, where the stick figure flips upward instead of downward. The lines shooting at the figure look scribbly and violent, like there's more deadly intent with THIS attack.|
|The Edge of an Oath||?|
|Like a Glint of Light||An arrow circling around a stick figure and pointing to its back.|
|Climax of the Tower||An arrow pointing to a stick figure's legs. There's enough detail to make it clear this is one of Nat's favorites.|
|Bloodthirsty Fang||Riddled with question marks, it has a stick figure making a kicking motion and an arrow moving forward along the 'ground,' with a bunch of knives drawn at random positions and angles. Seems she's not sure on HOW to do it just yet.|
|Chaotic Dance||Just a bunch of question marks. Apparently this one isn't controlled, it just happens.|
|Wild Dance||A circle instead of a stick figure with an arrow pointing downward at it. A bunch of lines surround it.|
|Keen-Edged Blade||A bunch of lines surrounding an empty space at first, as if to imply blinking out of sight, and next to it, it's hard to tell if those are a bunch of complex mathematical formulas about convex lenses or just random scribblings. Probably the latter. Another stick figure, frowning, has a line through its midsection.|
|Stab the Sword of Justice||This one has two stick figures surrounding a target - one of them adorned with hearts and other happy-looking things - with one holding what looks like a knife, the other coming from behind.|
|Distorted Sword Light||A curvy arrow moving around a stick figure, with an upward arrow tacked onto it. From there, there's line pointing downward, a bit diagonally. Of course, the other figure with the knife is there too.|
|Relentless Assault||A BUNCH of lines going through another figure. Like, really, a lot.|
|Rebel Against Destiny||A shape obviously representing an axe-kick from above on an unsuspecting - or maybe suspecting - target.|
|Rise Above the World||An arrow pointing up and cuuuuurving in an arc downward. It goes pretty high up.|
|Nostalgia for Hope||?|
|To the Last Drop of My Blood||A stick figure, arms crossed, surrounded by a bunch of straight lines going in various directions.|
|Exceed the Limit||Something seems to be emerging from a stick figure's forehead, taking up an entire page with what looks like a bunch of scribbles.|
|Violent Storm||♥ Lenny|
|Last Moment of the Wicked Way||♥ Ammy|
|Confidence in the Domination||A strange-looking sketch that looks like it was scribbled more frantically than the others- has some instructions for movements (like an arrow tilting diagonally downward) and a bunch of circles.|
|Moody Goddess||A big circle and a lot of lines coming off of it. Well, apparently she has an idea what it is, because looking at this there's no way anybody else can!|
|The True Mirror||?|
There's a separate section too!
|Impatient Sword||"A stance meaning you're ready to attack and don't care what happens! The whole body has to be in on it, though, you can't be putting more strength in some places than others or anything."||(Arms + Legs)|
|Earth-Piercing Sword||"A stance mostly channeling upper-body strength, for when you want to fire laser beams a lot! … Uhh, maybe it doesn't always work that great, though."||(Arms + Bracer)|
|Perplexed Sword||"A stance that's all in the legs, when you don't know what the enemy's gonna do and want to move around a lot. Totally the most fun, A+++ I give it my own stamp of approval!"||(Legs + Bracer)|
|Dancin' Sword||"A stance for when you're ready to go all out and never stop for a second! I think some people called it capo… capo… uhh, I forgot."||(Trance. Forgot to mention it. Whoops.)|
|Unbroken Sword||"A stance that doesn't move at all, not for anything! It's boring because there's no attacking involved, but…"||(Defense)|
Æther Realm Castle Spergzone
"Hi! How's work?"
"It's a turbulent seesaw ride of difficult effort-in-motion and luxurious decadence. I can't tell you any details, of course, I'm forbidden to, but Grandfather has been quite busy, himself. Overall I am satisfied." (See… what?)
"That's good! By the way, did you ever go to see that new continent yet? That one was my fault too, but I dunno, there might actually BE something there, don'tcha think?"
"New continent? I'm afraid I've not the foggiest. Grandfather has no plans for New Years, but it seems he wishes to attend a play next month. Odd, I didn't know he had a taste for them. I should be going with him, and I do hope it's not dull. Perhaps on the way we can explore this 'new continent' business."
"What kinda play? Believe ir ot not I might know some maybe if I ask around- but! I just wanted to bring it up because the continent's a brand new place that popped up thanks to the Crystal. If you hurry you might find treasure or something there before anyone else! … Or maybe I'm just too lazy to check it out myself, eheheh. Work is busy. But whatever you do, good luck! I'm cheering for you, 'kay?"
"I see. That may be worth looking into then, thank you. We should catch up at a future point in time."
"Yeah, that'd be cool!"
*Flyer dumped into the mindworld*
- Empty-looking room, which is actually the garbage dump for a bunch of broken mirrors but just has a curtain of invisibility thrown over it. (1f)
- Painting room filled with ugly ruby lizards and stuff. (2f)
- eh more later
Tiny Emerald/Ruby/Diamond Weapons and the Majora's Mask moon memories of ancient guardians of the planet who don't actually do anything but look cute.
ALSO Coffette the supercute… what IS she supposed to be anyway? Whatever, she's there, and she has a maid headband and everything. She is the BEST at cleaning.
~Secret Planning Zone~
Phase 1: Sneak into the Bastion, find a memory of Durandal
Phase 2: Get the OTHER Buncle to be busy, teleport to Gluttonland, assume her identity
Phase 3: Find Atomos + possible breakout, learn the Glutton's plans, get the fuck out
1) No lying! (Bending the truth is okay~)
2) Don't break the "we won't get in each other's ways" promise! (So if I do it behind her back…)
3) No selling out or using allies! (This is MY mission!)
PLAN A: Send back a response saying… uh, something about the new continent that appeared? They don't know about that yet, right? The Glutton was sure interested in that jun-gull thing so if he knew about it he might send somebody to go look at it, right? That'd be my chance! I can try to follow my letter in wearing the cloak and see if I can't find Durandal in a mirror while she's busy reading it. Oooh, I'm not breaking any rules but that's not gonna help me feel any less awful!
Issues: … There's no way to know any of that would work, though. Like what if he already knows or just doesn't care? I'd probably make myself look dumb- I guess it IS the safest still. If it screws up I can just try another one.
PLAN B: Sneak into the Bastion normally. Maybe if I think of something I can go ahead and send a letter about something friendly and boring, why not? Either way it's only a big deal to sneak in there when I'm doing something outside and can't concentrate. So it's easy! THEN after I got my teleport-place marked (y'know, I still have no clue if that's even how that works…) snoop around until she leaves for something, like uh, being off with that Terrato guy maybe? THEN take her spot and play pretend until I find Addie!
Issues: This is a problem with A too so listen up, me! I can't wear the tiara 'cause he'd know it's me… at least, I've mentioned that I wear it to help with my memories before and she tells him everything, right? So I have to take it off, meaning… uh, I'm probably gonna be amnesia-me again, won't I? That's a little scary, so I should probably write a letter to myself before I do it in case I forget what I'm supposed to do before I finish it. And if I get caught before I do…. eeeeee. Well thinking on "if"s like that isn't like me, so who cares!
PLAN C: Screw all this subtlety stuff and challenge Mary to swap places on PURPOSE, since me being Eiko's means I get to be around Fenry and Deeny all the time, yeah? That way I can find out if that's REALLY what the Glutton was after, and we can both get closer to what we want! But uh…
Issues: … That's like the worst selling out I can do, I wouldn't do that! I mean, I could go see Eiko first to set up a plan so she wouldn't let anything happen to them, but um, then I'd be kinda lying and cheating, so BOOM rule 1. Yeesh, this is hard.
PLAN D: Send a letter in mindworld mentioning Addie somehow… not even in a mean or a threat-y way, just like, "That Atomos guy sure is cool, huh?" Something like that. And THEN use my ~supreme mood-reading powers~ to judge from her response (if there is one… oh yeah that could be a problem huh) if he's actually there. And uh… man I don't even know what to do from there. Ask to visit over tea and then be totally nonchalant (I wonder where I even learned that word) about finding a way into Durandal, and then uh… laser beam Glutton in the face and escape with Addie?
Issues: Everything. This is a dumb plan even for me! It's like if I had a choice between breaking into a big building with millions of guards and climbing stairs for 3 hours I picked the first one. … When I phrase it that way it feels like it's been done before for some reason…
Phase 1: This is only for if one of the others fails! Pretty sure it's gonna be A or B. If I can't sneak in to watch a mirror, then just be friendly and ask to come visit. I don't think she'd actually bring me to say hi to the Glutton, even if I DID say I'd be nice and just ask him questions (I would, that's not a lie!) or something, so it'd be up to me from there to get her distracted long enough to get Durandal in my head. Or maybe even flat-out be all "let me watch some of the stuff you've done so I can be a proud big sister~" … That sounds siblingy enough, right?
Phase 2: If anything goes wrong and I get caught before I even get to do anything… uh… well, I should write this down just in case I don't have the tiara, because the FIRST thing I'd do is get that back. Then, I fight! If I'm already screwed then it's not like I can make myself look good, yeah? Run to fight another day and OH MY CRYSTAL I JUST HAD THE BEST IDEA I'll put it in the next part. Anyway, this is ONLY if I'm going to get captured or something! Laser beams, find a window or something to jump out, Teleport. I'll uh, deal with the konseekwenses some other time 'cause I won't be alone then, but MAN I hope that doesn't happen.
Phase 3: Okay so, the idea? I've said over and over again that I don't WANT to fight, but if I get discovered on my way out (or even during phase 2!) then the Glutton's going to - gulp - probably send her after me, right? This is totally the coolest failsafe ever. First, if I escape: I'll come to her in mindland and tell her where I'm going to be at, and time it just right (somehow) that she can crash the party ON the day it happens. That way we'll have a real fight in the middle of it and everything and it'll be SOCOOL that there's NO WAY the Magus Sisters can top it, ever! … If I get caught and can't escape I'll probably offer a challenge anyway, but uh, if they're anywhere near as mean as I was roleplaying them to that Ayawnay chick it's less likely to happen. Gotta be careful, me.
Phase 1: Found 'decent' mirrors, detection unknown, no damage - B Rank, 80000 points
Phase 1.5: ~1 hour, no damage, almost caught, didn't get lost - A Rank, 90000 points
Phase 2: Undetected, stole a fucking door lock, 'borrowed' clothes, met Atomos - S Rank, 100000 points
Phase 3: Let Atomos be, met Glutton, gave Glutton the 'correct' answer(?), stole from mime, retrieved crystal&etc, escaped - A+ rank, 95000 points
Bonus Phase: Get fucked over! Escape anyway! - No Rank, 0 Points
Total: 365000/400000 points - A Rank
"Could've been better, but man I'm still pretty good, huh?"
Campaign : FFIX-2